IS THIS NOT THE SWEETEST PICTURE ON THE PLANET?!? I cannot EVEN!
I am so thrilled and also absolutely cannot believe littlest guy is going to big kid school! This makes my heart warm and fuzzy and my eyes teary and my throat choked up. Look at those bright shoes! That new haircut! How will he ever find anything in that giant backpack? Will he make new friends? Dear sweet Lord, make his classmates kind and gracious and give him some friends. Help him sit in his seat and not hit or bite other children or get too overwhelmed with senses overloaded. School is hard.
See, I've always had this soft spot for the littlest guy. Bigger guy has a piece of my heart too, but littlest guy always cuddled in silence and watched TV much more than his big brother. He LOVES animals and has been drawn to them since he seemed to see past his nose. Initially he loved eating and would get so excited for his bottle, but as he started eating food, little quirks came out. He could hear the pop of a glass jar of baby food and fly into the kitchen, which was sometimes actually pasta sauce or another food container. The top popped and all of a sudden littlest guy was underfoot. Other little quirks and characteristics stuck out as we learned his personality. I thought he was a little introvert, and I just wanted to sit there and hug him. A while ago, there were certain quirks that befuddled my brother and his wife, so they consulted doctors and specialists.
Oh. So, that explains quite a bit. Tests. Therapies. My brother and sister-in-law have been through a lot before and after The Diagnosis. This is also the main reason he couldn't be in our wedding. When he gets overwhelmed, he sometimes yells out or throws a tantrum and just cannot be consoled. He is very particular about some things. For instance, if you are watching a show with him and the characters start singing and you begin singing along but he does not think this is a time you should be or for some reason does not want you to sing right then, you will get a matter-of-fact, "NO!" Though M and I were okay with him yelling out or crying or whatnot, we understand that my brother and sister-in-law did not want to disturb the wedding with his unpredictability. But seeing that little guy there during wedding festivities and carrying around a plastic dinosaur (maybe the one I sent for his birthday? It's hard to keep track of all the dinosaurs!) really warmed my heart. He was so well-behaved too (no doubt he'd been given a lot of warnings and coaching ahead of time), and he loved taking umbrellas out to guests with Uncle Robert. So helpful!
I nearly posted about him during Autism Awareness month and did not. But him going to big kid school and dealing with all these new things is a lot AND THEN that picture! I've looked at it maybe five, six times. Now, where is my hearts-popping-out-of-eyes emoji??